Wednesday, August 9, 2017

Peaceful moments

Last night I was laying watching the lightening out the window, listening to the thunder roll and rain fall steadily in the darkness, hearing Daniel's steady breathing, Tabitha's occasional stirs in her crib, the stirring/crinkling sound of our boys rolling over in their sleep. 
It's hard to explain the feeling. 
Happiness, thankfulness, feeling rather overwhelmed with how much I have been blessed, and feeling completely undeserving of the blessings. 
And so a whispered prayer of gratitude to God, a grateful session as He reminds me in the moment that no matter what I am going through there is still peace to be found.
I don't have "every thing together" every day I look at my short comings and see my mistakes, I see my failings and I ache for my husband and children who have to endure my humanness on a daily basis. Yet there are moments of quiet peace, where I can forget for a time the things that hurt and I am thankful for those times. 

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Long day

I feel that I accomplished a lot today... but our house is still a mess. Washed 3 loads of laundry, hung two on the line and had to wait for them to dry so the third load didn't get out on the line till this evening. 
Picked about a gallon of tart cherries, the birds and ants have a hay day (oh make that cherry days) when our trees start ripening... by the time they are ripe enough to actually pick at least half of the cherries on the tree are bird pecked or ant riddled... but I have enough for either two pies or some cherry syrup. 
Made Coleslaw for me... tried to persuade the boys to eat some, but they figured I was trying to poison them...   So I get it all to myself... 
Then the boys helped me clean the pool out... We'd drained it
mostly last night as the algae was starting to slowly build up and the filter system was getting pretty rough looking... It's now sparkling clean again... after a few hours it was full, and I put a proper ratio of bleach in it and turned the filter system on again to get it circulating all night. 
The boys again were very helpful with weeding... pulled random weeds out of the potatoes that had gone to seed, and also tried to get all the portulaca weed out... grrrr... I dislike that weed... look it up and you'll see why.  It wasn't here when we moved here, we got dirt from two different farmers, one had portulaca and now we fight it trying to keep it from taking over our garden.
After we did the potatoes the boys helped me pull weeds near the onions and beets... after a bit they all left, and then Isaiah came back and helped me again.  Matthew and Seth decided to turn over the burning barrel and begin playing in the ashes.  I stopped them before they really did anything with the ashes though. 
Throughout the day I fed and cared for Tabitha... she's such a content little baby, just like her brothers were. Happy as can be to be a part of our family, as long as she's fed and had enough sleep that is.